Nostalgia Pieces Of Life's Puzzle

2012-02-14T22:18:00.001+08:00

Love is about sacrifices. I sacrificed mine. It's still fresh from my heart. Never gonna get healed. Waiting for miracles and hope, But I guess it will never come. True love is never about fairy tales. Please come back. Please.

2012-02-13T21:59:00.002+08:00

Happy Valentines Day to all lovers out there.
i remembered having my first valentine's day 2 years ago.
it was memorable yet a painful one.
its still runs through my mind.
its hard.
i dont know hows your life over there.
but i pray each day that u are happy.
i never once regret being with u even though we are far apart.
never once.

2011-08-26T06:06:00.008+08:00

we used to hang out at starbucks coz we love starbucks coffee

This pic is our first ever date. u wanted to be a nerd. you turned up late coz u went to see armani

This pic is taken when u had your second serving of beef claypot rice as u love beef so much. and this pic u were sulking with me. i cant remember for what reasons

This pic was taken candid as u were teasing me.

i remembered this to be our double date but end up with a few dates. You and danny were showing how the lady stumbled down the stairs and me n zie have to chase after you guys for not letting u guys enter the stupid sex shop

This pic was taken when u teased me for being short and i wasnt feeling satisfied and tried to tip toed. but failed.

If u are reading this Allan, wish i really hope, but i know its impossible. im trying to say that i love u more each day. yes! i cant get over u till now. i have tried to move on, but failed. Even when u gave me the cold shoulders when i called u, yes, i felt pain, but i wont give up. im trying to work my ass off, to get a good education and save money so that i can fly over to u, to see u once more and explain to u what happened actually. i know its been years now. i wont give up. i know its stupid. we have gone thru alot together, i know that u didnt give up on me once, but it seems that u have given up. i want to tell u n make u understand what happen. u said i was a fake and its all my fault. yes! im a fake coz i loved u too much for u to get any harm and yes its my fault that i have this fucking bullshit life. Allan, this fucking bullshit that caused us to be apart has never left my life as i wanted to. its happening. i have suffered alot. yes! i did pay a price for what i did which i lose u. Allan, will u forgive me?

2010-02-23T10:42:00.002+08:00

This is what people would do when they get bored.

this gurl beside me wanted me to update my blog..

so we took this crazy plus stupid photos.

this month n maybe weeks have been pretty hectic for me.

bz working, dating n coping up with my studies.

exams are around the corner..

i want to pass but at the same time i am lazy to even browse through my books.

im really2 tired man.

well....

now we are having writing for business class.

here we are bz surfing the net.

haha

its so boring..

its like english class.

later got service excellence..

heard that today got test..

but i nvr see my classmates touching their book to revise..

worried about my menses.

please come soon!!!

2009-10-20T22:18:00.006+08:00

Last Sunday went out with ALinda JEpon

HAd a great time together..

wacky always.

n Alinda being cheeky owaes..

hahah..

yeah...

been rather bz lately with school.

trying to adapt to the new schedule.

haha..

ALinda JEpon!!

I wanna go out with u again lar!!!

When ur pay day k?

We go out..

hha..

Camwhoring bitches!

2009-10-12T21:09:00.008+08:00

This is a crazy woman named Safita

My adik going crazy!

Mira peppy feeling thirsty watching me drink

Sweets!

She took a picture with my mum to make me jealous. ggrr!

What is my aunty doing behind??!!

My Boncit!

Today was the first day of school.

Was ouhk la..

Exept today Faiz was over hyper.

dnt knw whats wrong with hym.

haha...

then got 3 hours of break..

went to the airport for a while..

went back sch at 3pm.

after sch share cab with saf,

rush to compass point to mit Alinda Jepon!

haha.. walk2 with her then we ate at 1901..

then bside her got one guy.. she dont even realise that it was her online fren..

then she msg that guy. it happened to be true!

haha.. he said we are talkative n like minah reps..

haha.. our behaviour was far from minah reps ouhk..

hhha.

then got a surprised call from danny!!

he n his fren meet me n alinda..

then we slack at the void deck for a while..

after that we went home..

haha.. tired man..

send mirah peppy her pictures..

haha..

today was tiring but had loads of fun after sch with danny n alinda!

love them loads..

n i love you too mira!!

remember my advise to u..

i dont want u to get hurt.

be happy with hendra kays?

gve hendra a chance to love u.. not wan!

LOve u adik!

2009-10-08T02:49:00.002+08:00

Yesterday afternoon, went swimming with Muhd.
But b4 that, he went to my house early in the morning.
i was really tired.. so i just went to bed without even bothering that Muhd came..
Muhd was so irritating, he wont let me sleep.. ggrr!!
he just hit me with my pillow repeatedly till i woke up at 10am.
two hours of waking me up..
haha.. sorry yeah..
i have this habit of having a difficulty in waking up in the morning..
then, woke up, went to cook a dish called 'sotong hitam' (black squid)
Muhd help me with the household chores..
then ard 1 pm we went out..
as we are walking n disturbing each other, well, i was actually pinching Muhd,
then suddenly i fell.. the worse part is i sprained my right ankle.. boohuhu!!
Muhd was damn evil.. he kept on laughing..
but i was able to walk normally even when my leg was hurting.
but we proceed going to the swimming pool.
the more i swim the more hurtful my ankle start to get,
n we played the slide.. damn syiok!
after swimming went to 7-11 to grab a bite, coz i havent eat yet..
sat down at the viod deck, then i proceed home n Muhd went to meet his gf!
haha..
i couldnt walk properly..
even though my ankle was injured, i still do household chores, limping away.
wow, i was experiencing great pain till tears roll down from my eyes.
no one help me do the chores.. so sad man..
but its ouhk.. dyla is owaes a strong gurl..
hopefully my ankle recover soon!
i wanna go out!!

k la.. im feeling sleepy now..
if i have the time to update, i'll update kays..
TATA!!

2009-10-04T21:30:00.018+08:00

My busybody uncle.. haha

My son

this is my crazy lil sis!

My son is already 1 year n 9months!

cute rite?

my irritating uncle disturb my son!

My julius fat ball!!

My mummy, me n my lil sis!

Me n Atikah my cousin

mummy called this tortoise "Begok"

b4 going out!

Had loads of fun this week..

get to spend time with my lil cousins n my lil sis.!!

n with my son too!

kept eating..

seeing kids eat is really tempting..

i really like this one chocolate chip cookies..

dont knw where my aunties bought them..

very yummy!!

today went to peppy's house..

ate alot too..

hahah..

then watch 'jangan pandang belakang congkak'

its a ghost story but its really hilarious!

yeah..

but now i have a bad tummyache..

maybe bcoz this few days ate those dishes with loads of spices...

hehe..

btw peppy, dont u try steal my mummy!!

ggrr!!

2009-10-01T21:55:00.003+08:00

this is what she do when she has nothing better to do.
kakak n adik!

she doesnt allow me to go back home.

my son n me!!

my son doesnt even bother about me wen he started playing the playground.

this is muhd. my close fren.

hmm.. muhd, the slenge guy bside me..

( i have to hide his face )

Today i nvr go swimming.. =(

but intstead go gym with farhan n malek..

it was a dissapointment as some of the machines were out of order.

hmm.. but hey.. we managed to survive..

did cardio...

then me n farhan went to one corner to do sit ups..

haha..

then after that we started to talk crap..

then malek started to join in, thats were farhan went more crappy!

so i say her brains were out of order today!

haha..

but it was a whole loads of fun..

but i have to leave early coz my sis wanna go back early..

i wanna go gym with u guys again!!

fun lar!!

tmrw go swimming with my sis n maybe muhd..

hopefully this time round will make it to the pool!!

ggrr!! cant resist the swimming pool..

hahhah...

2009-09-28T20:13:00.010+08:00

My charming youngest uncle n me! Grr!! my uncle covered my face while taking photo with his daughter atikah!

Tehah n me!

My cute lil cousin anna!!

Me n my tall cousin! hmm.. *im so short*

Me n mira peppy!

Our family named us the pretty ladys' in our family

( coz we are very vain! hehe! )

someone wants to fit in.. ggrr!!

Hey there, im dyla sotong! hehe

most of these fotos were taken yesterday!

had fun with my cousins.. especially with my lil cousins..

saw them eating alot makes my appetite grow..

so i joined them. we keep eating n eating..

especially those fried chicken wings n drumlets at wak mad's house.

yummy!!!

ouhk enuf about food..

today went gym with malek n muhd.

luckily malek wake me up at 7am..

if not cant make it to gym at 8am..

but unfortunately, all of us were late..

haha.. we went in the gym ard 9am..

but b4 that while waiting for muhd, had breakfast at mac donalds..

~wee.. had sausage mcmuffin.. but couldnt finish it as i was full

so i asked malek to finish for me..

muhd kept disturbing me while im bz working my abs out..

grr!

so i disturb him back by putting more weight to the machine.

hehe..

we went out of gym ard 1035am..

tdy malek was so damn serious..

no jokes like normal..

then went back home to put my bag then i meet mummy at compasspoint.

me n muhd walked to compasspoint..

along the way he keep disturbing me..

he owaes say im the bad girl.. but he is the bad one!

btw muhd is attached u knw.. 8 months! hehe..

so girls no chance la for u...

sorry muhd i have to expose u! hahaha...

now chatting with mira peppy!

miss her la..

btw zie called me earlier on, damn miss her so much..

even though its a short conversation but it was meaningful to me!

2009-09-26T16:34:00.006+08:00

Its been a long while ive updated my blog.

its not that i dont wanna update..

its just that im bz with my own life.

got loads of problems now n then.

but alhamdulilah, all went smoothly

even though some problems are not yet been solved..

but its ouhk..

im taking a step at a time.

im a whole lot of a changed person.

im now living in my own world.

without even bothering about other people's prob or lives.

coz it aint related to me unless u are related to me then i'll care about u.

hmmm.. now im the kind who keep her gaps up more rather than opening it up.

much more convenient rather than u get blamed for everything..

close your mouth n close your ears.

n everything will be alrite..

p.s. my cousins call me a minah rep! grr!!

2009-07-21T21:43:00.002+08:00

I miss this peppy of mine.

adik, i know u are feeling down..

but i wanna remind u that he dont deserve ur tears.

adik, just throw him far away from ur mind.

i know its hard.. but try to..

exams nk dkt,, u wanna make noni dissappointed with ur result ke?

i know noni approve u to ite but try ur best k?

adik, ite is not a bad thing.

fuck care of what ppl say of ite students being so stupid.

u see how me n ur abg cope in school of ite.

its a fun learning environment.

we learn much more than the poly students.

that i cnt deny that fact,.

i dont mind u going to the ite..

as long as u promise me to excel in life.

for me u are not a failure.

its just that u have loads of distraction to make u lose focus in ur studies.

but owaes think failure as a step to success.

u see how i get my o lvl result?

i didnt even regret one bit..

im worried for u seeing u in this condition..

as for wan, just think that he nvr exist in ur life.

i know u can overcome this like u did last time.

but dont make ur heart hard..

just loosen up like me ouhk adik?

please.

n just remember the fun we are about to have on this saturday n sunday k adik.?

dont think too much..

im owaes here for u!

i owaes love you even though u treat me badly i nvr ever scold u.

love you owaes mira!!

2009-07-21T20:32:00.004+08:00

faiz n dyla..

the rugger who called me a minah rep.

im not ouhk!!

me n shikin kecik.

she just love to be kecik n being retarded.

hey this is my grp of frens im close with..
they are a bunch of crazy ppl!!

during LLA period..

did banner for national day

Ayie, Fauzy n Me..

slacked at the beach. nothing to do on that sunday..

On sunday slack with fira!!

WHite- ASidah

Blue- Shikin

REd- Safita

Black- mine!!

Safita, i finally upload this pic of yours!!

hahaha,..

i say i put it up means i put it up..

My sick face..

hahaha.. during lesson time..

2009-07-18T23:30:00.002+08:00

Had great fun today!!

Lepak with sakdon, harum bin wangi n black.

hahaha..

met them..near my block there.

i had to follow black n harum go take their lorry n lead the way.

Harum threaten to bring me to cemetry.

Evil man both of them..

grr...

haha..

then we talk all kind of stupid nonsense..

cant stop laughing!

slacked with them frm 6 to 8.

coz we got meeting..

haha yeah..

before going back, i disturb harum.

he pinch my cheeks!!

grr!!

so painful..

sakdon was like serve u rite.

so evil man..

i have to rush home coz my mum came back with loads of stuff.

n i had to carry it home..

gosh..

yeah..

currently having a bad headache..

gonna sleep now..

2009-07-07T21:00:00.004+08:00

Me & Safita. My darling.

Shikin as usual with her camwhoring poses.. haha

wanted to take her pic off guard. grr..

He saw what i was doing. damn. thats explain his facial expressions.

and today he being a bad boy!! bullying me alwaes.

He uses his lap instead of his table to concentrate studying. haha.

taufiq2! must talk more.. its better..

Asidah was busy drawing on her AFD notes. so i snap it.

haha.. she was pretty tired. yeah not really in the mood.

hmm. i love my pic upside down. interesting. or maybe feeling upside down today.

haha.. yeah.. today was a total of crazyness.. really..

couldnt stop smiling and laughing.

maybe becoz my frens made me happy today with their randomness.

accounting lesson turned into art lesson. haha

2009-06-27T23:37:00.002+08:00

haha. these was just now photos.

yeah..

mira its your fault that i spit out water from my mouth.

you were the joke of the day..

with the sexy butt posing..

oooo./.. sexy... I like!!

N firdaus saw his crush!

he excitedly told me that she was standing just bside him.

she was so beautiful...

yeah..

then saw my guy fren at geylang..

haha.. cool./.

but we nvr spoke to each other but texting each other..

he saw me first eating the ice cream n he text me.

i was paiseh. those who knw me will say that whenever i eat will owaes be horrible.

yeah.. i was eating ice cream horribly.

N now talking to Asraf..

yeah. he ask me to write his name big2.

he is my advisor. i feel really comfortable talking to him rather than my close frens

hell yeah! You owaes make me laugh dude!

girls who get u are lucky.

go find some time off n spend time with your loved ones.

not spend time with ur work only. dont be too workaholic!

haha.. yeah!!

I WANT MY GFs'!!

miss you guys.. i need you guys too!!

im breaking down soon man..

2009-06-27T13:19:00.004+08:00

My beloved cookie monster!

I dont know what to post today.

Btw to A, thankx for hearing my probs.

appreciate it loads.!

hmm.. cant wait to go out now.!

with my cuzzies n aunties!

going to arab st and maybe bugis!!

yeah..

gotta run now!

toodles.

above pictures are yesterday's one with naufal n mira.

n that pic with my gf n her bf was last month pic.

n i love all of them!

2009-06-25T16:31:00.002+08:00

People say ive changed?

fuck! in what way?

i dont wanna think about it.

but its killing me..

YES I ADMIT THAT THE OLD DYLA IS SWEET N NICE!

BUT I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE THAT PEOPLE ARE STEPPING ON MY HEAD!
IS IT WRONG FOR ME TO HAVE MY OWN STAND?

U GUYS WANT ME TO BE THE OLD DYLA SO THAT YOU GUYS CAN STEP ON MY HEAD IS IT???

pondering and wondering...

HELP!!!!!

2009-06-18T16:36:00.007+08:00

I dont know whats going on with me these days..

short tempered, wanna go out owaes...

i cant really control it..

what am i supposed to do..

w/o bf is the same as it is..

aiyoh..

dont knw how to explain it..

but its tormenting me man..

yeah...

how i wish i could b free like a bird..

and not be cooped in my very own house.

its really suck!

but whatever it is im enjoying it cause i get to waste so much of my electricity before i get thrown out.

ahhahha..

what an evil girl i am..

but i dont care..

dont care anymore what will the outcome be..

n i dont care!

i dont wanna know, i dont wanna care..

coz im tired of this..

tired of this bullshit that is happening..

i dont care what others may feel

coz i am me!! i want to be me!!!

you may leave if you hate the way i am rite now..

2009-06-18T15:31:00.001+08:00

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2009-06-11T09:30:00.002+08:00

Hey..
someone has been bugging me to UPDATE!!

hmm.. wonder who??
these 2 aunties beside me..
Safita & Shida..
hahaha..

Right now im in OFA class.
Bored..
i completed my assignment 7 finally..
nvr completed assignment that fast before..
n the rest of my OFA assignments??
HAVENT COMPLETE!!

well anyway, who cares about it?
its not as if im not even going to do it.
Right Safita???

I wasnt feeling well yesterday night.
feeling feverish n abit of vomiting.
thats y today im abit cranky..
hahaha..

N now those 3 aunties beside me.
blabbering away..
watching other people blogs...
hahahaha...
but sometimes its kinda cool looking at other people's blog.
look at how they express themselves or even the way they comment on whatever stuff.

hmm..
i'll update soon to my dear frens n cousins.
sorry it takes awhile to update my blog coz im rather busy these days.
yeah...
so i'll be back!!! =)

2009-05-24T14:41:00.002+08:00

Things had been rather chaotic.

schools n other things.

No time for blogging.

Coz most of the time im out.

n come home late.

I miss Mira peppy!!!!

n some of my other friends too.

n not forgeting my Allan.

Thankz azian for helping me out.

Love you.

n to my ziela syg, both of us had been bz,

miss you so much la.

dont know what to blog actually..

yeah..

i wanna a laptop man.

now i knw the needs of a laptop.

its not fully for surfing but my school stuff!

Damn!!

yeah well today fira went to my house.

she wanna use my spare handphone.

she was feeling hungry,

well its her luck that i have cooked fried rice,,

haha

after that she was off to her tch's wedding.

he bf gave her a ride.

it was fun being with her even though its a short one.

have to straightened her hair.

hhahah

which is actually in a horrible mess.

hmm..

today im just gonna slack at home.

just too tired.

hahah..

gtg for now..

tata..

2009-05-16T21:13:00.002+08:00

Saf n me

Left to right: Shikin, asidah, me & taufiq looking

2009-05-10T14:58:00.002+08:00

This was last friday's photo.

had fun in team building.

so kecoh..

hahahaha..

skipped BEV lesson..

cause wanna take money that allan had send me.

n coz im lazy to go..

hahaha..

didnt had time to blog recently coz spend most of my time going bored.

coz i cnt sit at home.

hahaha..

n im going out soon.

to my granny's house for bbq!!

yeah!! cnt wait..

meet all my cuzzies..

BTW I BOUGHT A NEW HANDPHONE..

same as shikin's. hahaha//

both of us same2 hp..

yeah!!

k la..

gtg..

tata!

2009-05-02T21:50:00.001+08:00

I HATE YOU DAD!

N FOREVER WILL.

WILL NEVER EVER FORGIVE YOU!

AFTER ALL THESE YEARS,

I HATE YOU EVEN MORE!!!

2009-05-01T22:51:00.002+08:00

Today go to my grandmother's house.

Yeeaahh!!

My family was the first to come.

Upon reaching, straightaway i went to the kitchen to get food.

i was feeling very2 hungry.

soryy peppy nvr wait for u.

coz i know u will come late.

today, i was the centre of attraction

bcoz of my swollen feet.

haha. so big.

but managed to get my aunt to massage it 4 me.

yeah!

then my son naufal came, straightaway i stand up to get him.

His mum dressed him up.

so handsome like justin timberlake.

thats my precious nephew.

then play at the playground with naufal, my sis n my other cousin.

so tired today.

have to endure peppy's nonsense.

but best lar.

hahaha..

I LOVE YOU PEPPY!!!

then my aunt say maybe tmrw she will come my house to massage my swollen feet again.

haha..

yeah!!!!

sorry today no pics.

we are busy entertaining each other.

hahaha...

Allan Baby, Miss you lar..

my smelly baby..

hahahhhaha..

I LOVE YOU

MWUAH!!

COME BACK TO SINGAPORE SOON!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-30T13:30:00.002+08:00

Hey, its been a while since i blog.

been bz with school.

going home late everyday.

after that sleep.

hahaha..

today i had a chance to blog asi nvr go school today.

i sprained my ankle.

couldnt walk properly.

i use my computer chair to move.

haha..

i miss my frens,my bf, n my cousins..

peppy, visit me leh..

plz.. i miss you la...

haha..

My dear allan..

my frens was like asking me wen u will come back to spore.

all i could answer, i dont know.

they asked again. how long u are gone oready.

i say about 2 months plus.

they ask, dont u miss him, how u bear missing him.

i say, i miss him dearly, all i have to do is keep myself bz n have to be strong.

I LOVE YOU BABY!

2009-04-19T12:09:00.004+08:00

Hey, its been a week since i blog..

school has started..

really busy...

come home n sleep only..

hahaha...

i was freaking tired..

yeah!!

these are the pictures with my new friends..

they are the fun bunch of people..

haha..

at first i was scared to mix around..

but hey.. i get along well with them..

yeah..

n that pic with allan is today's pic..

we webcamed early in the morning..

yeah!! rather funny though..

with that thing that he do..

haha..

so cute man..

Yesterday met cassey at the library..

she never bring her son..

complaining about her married life..

she is 19 mind you..

hhahah..

but ouhk la..

have one son..

she borrowed many of the motherhood magazine..

yeah..

Miss you la cassey..

must slack often,..

2009-04-12T21:36:00.002+08:00

Things in life is always complicated.

Thats why i find it hard to put pieces of life puzzle

in place to form a nice piece of picture which is our life's ending.

Difficult and right decisions, are hard to make.

People always say follow your heart instinct.

Which i always do.

Thats why i never regret to the decisions i made.

Like falling in love with you allan..

I never regret that..

In fact my life became more beautiful with colours..

Hoping to live the other day, with hope of life.

Im sorry if i have hurt you just now.

I just wanna know what you truely feel n think inside.

So that I can understand you more.

N change myself for the better.

Forgive me for forcing you to tell me.

Im really2 sorry..

My love for you never change since day 1.

since day 1.....

2009-04-11T14:46:00.002+08:00

Today finally webcamed with my darling Allan.

After so long.. like few weeks...

N my face is horrible..

coz i just woke up..

haha.. he called me to webcam with him..

i was like FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha...

He gained weight..

His cheeks as u can see has became chubby..

Nice to pinch..

He was at his new apartment in Hawaii..

haha..

cool...

Hahaha..

btw sorry dear when i talked to u on the phone just now,

i dozed off..

i was really tired..

haha..

maybe later in the late afternoon,

going out with my mum n sis to buy some stuff..

2 more days till school starts..

damn...

wished holiday was longer a lil more

hahaha..

scared to go in the new school...

get to meet loads of new friends..

wish they will be the nice bunch of people//

hahahahaha

gtg for nw..

im tired..

downloading the game patapon 2..

hope it works this time round..

yeah!!!

2009-04-06T12:57:00.002+08:00

This was last saturday's photo..

First went to pasir ris beach to clear our minds

with the cool windy air..

it feels like heaven..

yeah!!

then after that went to coffee bean at EHub

to meet azian over there..

we the only bunch of people that is so noisy..

haha..

crack stupid lame jokes..

the things werent funny can be funny..

yeah..

i had loads of fun on that day..

but to bad i cant join them going to the changi beach after that..

i had to head home..

it was a really fun moment..

where we girls let our hair down..

yeah..

Girls!! lets go out again..

n be stupid for that day again..

2009-04-01T21:38:00.003+08:00

Today went to dejavu vintage shop..

my cousin had an interview at that shop..

its been a while since i visit that shop..

WOW!! New vintage clothes for dinner parties.

my cousin say its boring as not many people came in to the shop to shop..

We gossip about loads of things from family to stupid2 kinda things..

haha.. really had fun even though its a short one..

N tdy mira peppy gave me a call saying that allan call her..

then she say conference..

then she keep laughing...

i was blur..

impossible allan kol mira, coz he does not call me..

its expensive u know overseas call..

then she say april fool..

aiyoh...

mira peppy is so naughty..'

but its ouhk...

hahaha

without fashion, the world would be mundane..

no gorgeous colours to look at..

haha..

yeah..

fashion applies to everyone in the world..

even the ugliest person would look beautiful..

2009-03-30T20:54:00.002+08:00

2 aunties in front of me! haha

Last saturday, had a class gathering at shane's house..

at 6pm..

me n crab reached early n we wait for crystal under the bridge..

while waiting, i take out a bottle of raspberry vodka.

me n hazel drank it..

cool.

coz it was my first time drinking with crab!

me, hazel n crystal went to shane's house..

his house was so huge..

i mean big!!

what a rich family he has..

n hazel show me where aikhin live..

his house is much more bigger than shane..

wow..

impressive..

i tot living in the hdb flats is oready considered big for me..

but their houses was way bigger than us normal standard people..

then we went out to have a small talk..

the 3 of us..

n it was the first time too i talk alot with crystal..

haha.. interesting..

but too bad..

i had to go back early as i had a curfew..

my frens was like ouh man..

yeah.. i really had fun with them..

btw CRAB, U ARE MISSING IN MY PICTURES!!

i heard u guys wanna go out soon..

do text me aites??

i'll definitely come down...

yeah!!!

2009-03-24T15:24:00.002+08:00

Sunday, went out with my sis n farhana..

go to ehub..

wanted to play bowling..'

then its full house..

we have to be in the waiting list

which consists of 20 names..

then we decided to go to the beach to slack..

but otw there..

i heard someone calling my name from behind..

my sis say, eh someone calling u..

then i turned my head, n shouted..

guess who i saw..

My elder cousin!!

He also screamed when i screamed..

haha.. nice..

he was with his gf..

he was saying to her,

this is my cousin i told u..

n u deleted her on msn..

dont trust me is it?

his gf just laugh..

i was blurr at first..

but i managed to shaked out of it..

then he told me he saw our uncle

eating hei sushi...

Omg!! my uncle is very rich or what..

recently we just ate sakura buffet n now hei sushi??

wow.. im so speechless always when it come to their family..

Yesterday, went to compasspoint with my cousins n my son..

Naufal so cute after his hair cut..

yeah...

we ate at kfc.. then went to cold storage n went to the arcade..

thats where the pic above naufal was riding a bike..

cute right?? hhaha..

yesterday was fun though..

today is rather a cold mundane day for me..

im so tired..

whereas i woke up late today..

dont know what to do every day at home..

im bored, thats why i blog..

n have some stories to share..

Im tired! peace! =)

2009-03-21T15:17:00.003+08:00

This morning had a whole loads of fun webcaming with allan

kept laughing till my mum called me

n ask me y am i laughing so badly..

i said nothing.. just webcaming with allan..

haha..

i saw peppy doing this with nana peppy..

so i tried it with allan..

so loads of fun..

coz i got nothing better to do..

hhaha

i get this crazy sickness from peppy mira..

thankz ya!!

haha...

2009-03-20T22:15:00.005+08:00

Three Musketeers!
Me n My sis

Fira going gaga!

Fira concentrating playing patapon! But this pic is candid!

Love at first sight??

Taken while webcaming with him!Allan is chubby oready!
Noni's Birthday!Fira N Me

Fyza, Fira & Me!

Taken by Fira my photographer

Drawn by me of my darling Allan

This is what happened when i never blog for a few days..
Loads of pictures to upload..

haha.. just love to take pic..

But too bad there is one person missing in the picture..

Allan!!!!!! Come back to Singapore..

Then u can have loads of fun together with my frens..

Well actually im lazy to blog.

but i'll just blog a lil..

Mira peppy come to my house today to use my comp..

then she webcam with nana peppy..

crazy bunch of ppl..

making stupid faces to each other..

i cant even play my patapon peacefully..

But it was a joy for her to come.

miss her loads too..

n i keep disturbing her,.. yeah!

yesterday went out with fira n my sis..

we accompany my sis to *ehem*

but we waited her at pasir ris park..

Me n Fira went to chill at the beach..

Nice weather n the breeze was just rite..

the breeze really made us sleepy..

haha..

Both of us played the patapon..

haha..

it was hilarious though//

n Fira was ahead of me.!!

grrr!!!!!

but it was ouhk..

i'll work hard to succeed baby!

Then went to white sands to meet alinda!

she was becoming more gorgeous n bubbly after *winks*

But her was was tired as she just finish work..

keep blabbering about how stressful is office work..

office work is boring n etc..

haha..

then she asked me u know rite about.....

i cut her line n say yeah i know about it oready..

i said nice choice..

haha..

n she continue blabbering about it. haha..

i say it was the same case as fira..

Fira, u are a strong gurl..

i know u will handle it n made decisions wisely..

Ate dinner ate KFC..

Me n Fira standard broke.

but we disturb my sis when she is eating..

Alinda was telling us about her passion of singing.

n that she has joined the baronbrothers for her passion.

CONGRATS!

I love baronbrothers songs too!

then she told us how she met this fucking rich guy..

wow..

3 of us was filled with envy!

She was really lucky man..

its cool..

then the stupid part is Alinda n Fira started to tell us ghost stories.

it happened that yesterday was friday night..

gosh!!

it was really scary..

Yesterday me n my sis reached home around 8+ going to 9pm..

it was really tiring..

thanks to them that i couldnt sleep that nite bcoz of my wild imagination of their stupid stories

But luckily i fell asleep at 1+am coz im really tired.
havent get a good sleep these one month plus..

yeah!!

till here for now..

my hands are aching coz i type too long.

so much to talk about!!

Mira peppy!!

tHankz once again for coming my house!!

You made my day bebeh!!

hahahaha...'

do come more often aitez dear??

Love you mira!

MwuaH!

N love you too my baby Allan..

Get well soon aitez..

Love talking to u each day!!

Webcam n talk to u tmrw aitez baby??

Love ur mummy too!! *winkz*

Mwuah!!

OUTZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-03-17T15:25:00.003+08:00

hey..
im at fira's house blogging...
nothing to do...
so bored at home..

im at home, my parents nag..
if i go out, my parents will oso nag..
haiz.. dont know what else to do??
can anyone tell me??
better off dead rite??
but just now i just dont care..
my mum didnt allow me to go out..
but i say i dont care..
n here i am at fira's house..

btw mira, who is that guy u are referring to??
i wanna know..
u never keep secret from me before..
pls tell me..
yeah..
n yesterday u call me..
wow..
u disturbed me all the way..
u damn evil..
bully me..
hahaha. but its ouhk..
i nvr take it to hard anyways..

today morning was supposed to go jogging with mira.
but unfortunately, we didnt go..
coz it was raining heavily...
n we drag our sleep coz it was really cooling..
nice weather to sleep.. what do u expect..

as im blogging im talking to the phone with my darling allan..
yeah.. he go out with his brother..
now in hawaii is nite time..
yeah...
miss u la my smelly baby...

k la..
gtg now..
my hands are tired from typing...

2009-03-13T12:45:00.001+08:00

I SWEAR MIRA I WONT BE JEALOUS..

COZ U OWAES MAKE ME JEALOUS..

BUT ITS A FACT THAT NAUFAL LOVES ME MORE..

TOO BAD...

BLUEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAH

2009-03-13T12:07:00.002+08:00

Hey, its been a while since i blog.

been busy lately..

these few days is really fucked up..

dont know what's happening to my parents..

my dad keep scolding me.

i didnt even do anything wrong..

he said that im useless..

i can just keep quiet..

im not useless like my dad..

if im useless, y the fuck that u have me as ur daughter.

stupid or what..

damn...

I have nobody to console me wen im down..

i'll always go to my room n hardly come out..

what a bitch life i have..

Mira, thankz for everyting..

U always listen to my problem..

thankz dear..

Allan baby,
I miss you very much..

Just wish that u come back to Singapore.

I just wanna hug u..

N spend time like we used to..

Now without u by my side,

everything is in a mess..

U owaes cheer me up despite u always making me angry..

No matter how far u are,

like u said to me,

Im forever urs n U are forever mine..

Now im waiting for my mum's call..

whether to go or not..

to see my beloved son, Naufal.

hehe..

TATA.. =)

2009-02-15T21:46:00.002+08:00

Im Missing this peppy alot too!!

Happy Valentine's Day ppl..

yeah..

had a great valentine's day..

Went out with Allan..

dated at the Seoul Garden again..

haha..

Then he went to get me a bouquet of rose n bears..

so sweet of him though..

He didnt sent me back coz he had to go to his aunts house..

n went i board the bus halfway through..

he forget to take his 2 bunch of keys..

He had to come to my area to collect it..

met him under the block.

He gave me this one golden ring..

he slip it through my fingers..

He said, i will come back for that,

n take that as my wedding proposal for u.

i burst to tears, n i hug him tight..

This morning he just takes off back to Hawaii..

im now waiting for his call..

its torturing man..

today i just wanted to be alone..

i felt so sad deep down in my heart.

i just want him by my side...

I will wait for u Allan..

Call me soon..

I love You very much!!

p.s. peppy, i will be hanging out with you soon!! love you!!

2009-02-09T23:22:00.004+08:00

Im just too tired to write anything..

Its too long..

Let the pictures do the talking..

Of the days,

Of my life..

haha...

2009-01-28T21:01:00.003+08:00

Things have been really chaotic..

Elder folks have been nagging alot lately..

dont know what has happen to them..

its like a virus spreading in the family..

its getting on my nerves..

Today went to the US Ambassy with Allan..

i have to wait for him outside for so long..

i fell aslp.. hha..

then he came out n started talking to me in the profound english..

he just cant stop blabbering..

so i asked him to shut up..

Yeah, he was excited to go back US..

n i was not even excited at all..

yes, im happy for him that he could go bck to the states..

but being far away from him??

gosh, that will be the hardest part of my life..

After that went dating with allan..

haha..

he was sleepy..

he can slp while eating.. haha

n i accidentally step on his shoes..

he sent me back to compass point..

then my cousin approach me..

gosh!!

Luckyly kak ina n allan get along well..

haha.

i carried naufal..

Allan called kak ina auntie..

haha..

she say am i that old.. i couldnt stop laughing..

then i introduced him to abg eddy..

yeah..

today was overall ouhk..

I MISS YOU ALLAN!!!!!!!!

2009-01-24T23:35:00.002+08:00

We crawl before we walk.
We learn arithmetic before algebra.
We must fix ourselves before,
we can fix others.
If u want to make a change in your life,
the place to begin is with urself,
not with ur parents, or ur bf,
or ur professor.
All change begins with you.
It's inside out.
Not outside in.

Today i went out with zie
coz allan couldnt make it.
First we went to have our lunch,
then STARBUCKS!!
yummy2!!
had my pay today..
so little..
but nvm, i can still manage..
after that sat at the void deck..
we took many stupid pics..
it was all zie ideas n creativity.
haha..
meet my sis n then both of us went bck home..

it was a really fun moment to spent the day
with my dearest fren..
LOVE YOU ZIE!!

2009-01-21T14:22:00.003+08:00

Hey..

yesterday was super fun!!

even though the early part was rather hectic..

This pic was taken under Allan's void deck..

Yesterday, me n my sis fetch mira from school b4 going to allan's house.

inside the bus, we are so quiet coz earlier on me n my sis fight..

she n her bad feelings...

then on the train, my sis ask me to call my darling allan

to ask him to order pizza..

n he was fooling around saying ya i did order oready..

n im eating all alone by myself..

haha.. fag..

n i told him i want my fav beef bacon cheeseburger!!

yummy!!!

After that allan followed us to compasspoint..

allan n mira just cant stop disturbing each other..

allan was tickling mira n mira was pinching allan..

but he said he nvr felt a thing..

mira was not satisfied that he does not feel a thing..

hahaha..

both of them are funny man..

should have taken video of you 2..

haha..

2009-01-18T13:53:00.004+08:00

yesterday was all ruined up..

but luckily there was abit of fun though

allan didnt wake up despite me waking him up at 11 plus am..

we planned to go escape with my sis coz we got free tickets..

but in the end me n my sis just sit down at the void deck around 2pm..

then we just sit down, bought drinks from 7 eleven n just listen to music..

and at 4pm then my darling called n he got the nerve to ask us to go at that timing..

gosh...

but in the end i ask him to come down compasspoint...

he treat me to burger king n force me to eat the tomato..

gosh... he is damn evil..

then he bought vodka n some hair serum to smoothen up my hair..

so touched man, not bcoz he bought me that..

just that he cared for me from head to toe..

haha...

yeah.. then suddenly the strange thing is,

HE MISSES DANNY!!!

of all ppl danny... haha..

so i ring him up so that allan could talk to him..

n danny came down to compasspoint to meet us..

both of them cnnt meet each other..

like gay lovers..

haha...

then both of them send us both home b4 they head to their own destination.

later at night, talk to mira n my darling allan on the phone conferencing..

it was super fun!! n sorry mira, things get out of hand coz i had a lil too much of the drink.

yeah.. it wasnt ur fault n u r not to blame..

just couldnt control the anger inside of me towards allan..

as there is a slight communication prob..

but dont worry mira..

it has all been solved... =)

darling, no matter what probs that we are having,

I WILL OWAES LOVE YOU!!!

2009-01-15T22:05:00.002+08:00

What do you see when you look at me?

Do you see my smiles?

Do you see the laughter?

Do you see all the happiness?

Or do you see past the front to what really lies beneath?

Do you see the walls I put up to keep them out?

Do you see all the tears that stained my face?

Do you see the fears that I try to hide?

Do you see the scars inside of me?

Those scars that wont let me free

Those scars that run deep inside

Those scars that mar my very soul

Those scars I try so hard to hide

So do you see the truth in me or just the truth I want you to see?

2009-01-14T16:02:00.001+08:00

I hide behind a mask
You can't see my face
Looking at first glance
I'm in a happy place
The truth is, that's a lie
But you can't really tellthat in the back of my mind
I think the world should rot in hell
What's the point of living
If we are all going to die
What's the point of being happy
If in the end we're going to cry
But this is something no one sees
This is something no one knows
And yet deep inside of me
This feeling of hatred grows
So even though this mask reveals a happy side of me,

I use the mask as a shield to look at what others can never see.

2009-01-14T14:58:00.002+08:00

A lifetime of worry and regret,
filled with fears and unfulfilled dreams not met.
Not yet, no safety net, losing life's bet
and nothing to show for it
but tears and my sweat.

Hurtin' back, heart attack.
No one cuttin' me no slack.
Cuz' I'm a woman,

And what if I did dream of being something else.
What to do? Too late now anyway...
this is the card life dealt.

Oh but if I'd kept my eyes closed
just a little while longer.
I would have been stronger.
Yeah, and I would have believed all the dreams
yet to dream and I'd discover that
I could have been so much more...

If I'd only close my eyes a bit longer!

2009-01-10T21:07:00.002+08:00

Everyday of my life now has become so mundane.
How i wish i could spice it up...
Empty house each day...
Bright in the night time...
Cant even step out of it..
haiz...

I really dont know what i will do without my Allan..
Feel so different if he is not around..
gosh..
what Fifi told me is really true..
my love life is really cursed..
Its either the person leave me or have to go somewhere else..
haiz...
gosh.. life is so difficult man..

AARRGGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-09T23:11:00.003+08:00

Hey ppl..

Its been SO LONG since i've update this blog...

SOMEBODY has been pestering me to update..

cos she cant wait to know the stories of my life...

Crab, some of the stories i've told you already...

btw my darling allan just told me,

he will be going back to hawaii in 4 weeks time..

haiz..

gonna miss him badly...

but its ouhk... as long as he is happy down there i'll be content enough..

i've bought him this one t-shirt..

he say he look like mat rep..

i told him he does not look like mat rep coz he got fair skin..

but in the end, girls kept looking at him..

gosh..

i think he is too hot..

even mira say bro-in-law that is handsome, cute n hot...

omg!! too much praises for him...

ouhk2..

today went shopping with crab...

ITS FREAKING TIRING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stupid crab made me walk here n there..

saying that i can lose weight if i continue on walking...

u ask me to accompany u to go shopping in the end im the one doing the shopping..

make sure the next time u ask me to go shopping with u, u must know what u wanna buy..

i dont wanna go walking around tiring myself..

its not that im lazy crab..

but i got some leg probs right now.. u can see urself its blueblack..

haha..

hey, hopefully i can get a job at deja vu vintage..

n thankz for ur help for asking..

u should know im a shy person rite??

haha..

things at home have been chaotic lately..

a lot of things happend...

gosh...

i wish i could do something to stop this shit...

but if i interfere, i will owaes get the blame for the things i didnt do..

so what the fuck i should care???

2008-09-30T11:20:00.003+08:00

hey..
Long time since i last updated my blog..
its not that ive been bz, but my computer is down..
Hell!!!
Now im at Mira's house, checking my mails, friendster, n my blog..
Have to type real quick man.. coz im rushing for time..
loads to do at home..
yeah!!

today is the eve of Hari Raya Aidilfitri..
WOOHOO!!!
yeah.. its exciting but i hate to celebrate it..
coz u have to ask for forgiveness even if you dont do anithing wrong to that person..
ppl dearest to me will understand...

If i know today will be such a boring day in school, i wouldnt have come..
yeah..
but nvm.. i love my chemistry..
n have to go to Mira's house to charge my mp3..
coz the only to charge it thru comp... fag..

Life have been messy lately..
quarrel with my loved ones.
haiz..
i dont know where the problem lies..
or is it me that is a lil bit cuckoo??
damn im really tired these days..
have a really bad headache..

yesterday saw some of my old frens at cp..
haha..
wow.. they have grown so fast..
taller n more man...
rascals they were last time.. but now all grown man..
haha..
i was feeling happy that i could finally talk to them after a few years..
wow!! their characteristic is the same except they are now more matured..
hahaha..
got to trade number with them..
yeah!!
i was asking one of them, A, whether is he attached??
the replied me yes now i got a girl..
i said thats great..
A said again if i was single, you want to be my gf uh??
i said hell no!! i have a bf oready...
haha.. funny man..

had a great time to yesterday with my darling allan..
watch movie.. yeah.. Wall E..
nice movie..
im sorry that i fell sick halfway..
coz im really tired.. doing household chores all the way n taking care of naufal..
yeah..
i have already bought u an Everlast singlet..
its very nice.,
i hope you like it..
yeah.. im sorry if these past few days i make u angry..
really sorry..

to Crab:
nvm.. i oso haven come to school lately..
i didnt start first cracking the jokes..
you are the one who is owaes pestering me to talk to u as u feel bored n sleepy..
haha..
but watever it is crab.. dont study to hard coz u might transform into a blur sotong.. haha.
im sure u can pass your exam with flying colours.. fret not about ur position..
just conquer the enemy within you..
its not about other ppl.. its about you..
just defeat n challenge yourself to exams..
try ur best.. n dont put ur hopes to high my dear.. u might end up hurting urself..
just try ur best...

To mira:
I mish you adk!!
cant wait for hari raye..
dont come late hor..
coz your family owaes comes late..
hehe..
gonna have so much fun with you guys.. yeah!!
n dun forget the collections..
hehe..
wanna buy alot of stuf..
P.S YOUR MUM HIDE THE KUIH! she is scared that u guys would finish it b4 Hari RAya..
hehe..

gtg,,
going homw now..
mwuah!

2008-09-19T22:30:00.002+08:00

crab, y must u feel u are uch a failure??
failure is a step to success...
for me, u are an independent girl with storng determinations.
im sure you will succeed in life..
Runaway?? remember your plan about going hawaii??
you can join me too if you want..
but i have to go first..
i'll owaes be there to bring you an exciting journey of life..

There is only one success - to be able to spend your life in your own way.

~Unknown Author

2008-09-13T21:17:00.004+08:00

To Crab:

im sorry if i've made you tear..

i mean hey im not gone yet...

so im owaes here to make you smile..

im your clown remember???

those photos are memorable to me..

i wont forget about the times we share with each other..

i havent decide yet...

its painful though to decide...

friends n cousins or happiness..

people owaes say happiness is temporary...

you knw what crab,

each day my life is miserable at home..

i mean seriously..

im tired..

they wont even stop even i ignored them..

they, we will get back the fun times after exam my dear crab..

i promise you that... =)

To that peppy:

i know im selfish rite??

i tough making a decision..

n i haven made one..

i oso dont wanna loose you..

coz i love you adk..

i knw both of you wants me to stay..

rite now i haven made a decision yet..

i have to think properly... PROPERLY..

but regret is owaes there when i decide...

oh god, please help me make the right decision..

2008-09-11T13:14:00.003+08:00

i havent decided yet though..

still thinking..

trying so hard to make a wise decision..

its easy to do wrong thing but hard to make it right..

but what would you do i you were me bestie??

stuck in this situation..

there's alot of pros n cons still..

i need your opinion..

yeah i will get you present if i go..

i wont forget you guys..

you guys owaes rock my world..

i love you too crab..

with your jokes n pincing

today

during exam i slept for half n hour..

i was really tired though..

my eyes are still heavy though..

the chemistry paper was not that tough

its just that i didnt study..

if ive studied, it would be alot more easier..

i dont know i now i just love photograph..

seeing the pictures sometimes

makes me smile..

it works like magic..

its like you are being hypnotize

by the beauty of the photo..

gosh..

what a beautiful art...

2008-09-09T22:04:00.002+08:00

I never fail to surprise you??
what do you mean by that??
is it in a positive or negative tone??
i wonder...

yeah, i know its surprising though..
i too just knew it..
am i too naive or what to make that kind of decisions of life?
im just so confused now...
plz tell me.. what should i do bestie??
maybe i can work things out??

2008-09-09T13:31:00.003+08:00

The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want.
~Ben Stein

Some people are still unaware that reality contains unparalleled beauties.

The fantastic and unexpected,

the ever-changing and renewing is nowhere so exemplified as in real life itself .

2008-09-05T23:42:00.004+08:00

Life is like a game of cards.

The hand that is dealt you represents determinism;

the way you play it is free will.

~Jawaharal Nehru~

2008-09-05T23:09:00.004+08:00

'Unknown Journey To The Future'

Long time nvr update...
yeah.. so much had happened recently..
positive n negative..
I wish life wasnt that complicated..

Monday, my dar Allan bought me a creative zen mosaic mp4..
it was a surprise..
we hang around at plaza singapura.
we went in the creative shop to look at electronic stuff..
ever since creative zen mosaic came out, i was attracted to it..
i think my dar spotted me looking at it n not moving on..
when we went to the 1st floor, my dar was like 'u guys wait here, i'll be back in a moment, gotta stuff to buy' i saw him went in to carefour.. then lost his sight..
he came back in a jifty n like all excited..
he ask me to put my hand in his bag..
i was like what 4.. he just say just put it..
n i took out n it was the mp4 i wanted..
i was moved to tears..
gosh...

things got rather complicated btwn me n allan..
there's some prob arousing...
i mean not the normal couple fight or misunderstanding...
we didnt fight or have any conflicts or whatsoever.
its just that about the certain things in life we have to settle or solve for the future..
sacrifices have to be made..
breaking my heads off to find the best solution..
i hope god will give me the ans...

nvm about those things..
just now went out with him to go compasspoint..
we went to kiddy palace i was like dar, this donald duck bolster its adorable..
he ask u want it? i say no.. i just said it was adorable..
he say dar whatever i say nice or adorable about something, his hands will be itchy wanting to buy it for me..
i just say no nid to buy, i just gave it a comment..
unless i want it then i'll tell him..
he was like ouhk...

haha..
sweet rite??
yeah.. just came back home from meeting him..
yeah.. till here for now..
im tired..
havent sleep yet since yesterday..

btw mira i mish you adk..
wanna mit u asap..

tata!
dyla loves~

2008-08-28T20:25:00.003+08:00

Hey!!
today, Mira was my saviour...
it was a last min thang for exam
haha.. i ask her to buy for me mathematical set..
Thankz love!!

yeah...
the exam was rather ouhk..
the weird part is the easy sum of maths i cant do
but the difficult sum of maths i can solve..
damn it...
im getting old arent i...
then after maths was geography..
all i ans was the tourism qns coz thats what im good at..
yeah.. Hazel owaes say i can be a tour guide..
haha..
hell no... its quite a boring job for me..
i prefer a more fun job to do...

then after exam go and meet my darling Allan..
haha.. gosh he cook for me ang moh kinda of food..
hmm.. tasty!! hahaha... then we go ang mo kio...
we sold off his ps2 and ALOT of games...
yeah.. then went in to ang mo kio hub n buy Anderson's ice cream..
as usual i will pick cookies n cream..
yummy!! it was delicious...
then i have to rush home n i took a cab home..
but b4 that my darling ask me to take $50 from his wallet..
i said i just nid $10 bucks to go home, but he insisted i take his $50...

after i had taken my bath, i realise that my arm was blue black..
painful though.. but nvm...
now talking to Mira on msn..
yeah.. quite tired for the day..

dunno whats the plan for tmrw..
hmmm..
i wonder...... ;)

2008-08-18T12:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went out to celebrate Farhana's birthday..
wow.. Time is so fast that she had turned 20...

But my sis n i went out early...

we met zie n danny at hougang mrt station then we proceed to meet my darling Allan at orchard mrt.

we wait for him quite a while..

as we are walking towards takashimaya, danny saw allan n nvr told us..

then my sis noticed him..

danny confessed that he saw allan but nvr told us..

he is damn bad man..

hehe...

then we went to eat at far east plaza at puncak..

the food was not that nice.. my claypot rice tasted like burnt rice...

after that we went in the tangs, i've bought a cookies n crean gelato...

wow!! it was super delicious even though it is quite expensive..

but it doesnt matter as long as the gelato is a good quality ice cream..

then we wait for the rest of our frens to come..

farhana n mal came..

farhana wore a dress with black stokings.. wow!

she look gorgeous in it.. birthday girl shines the best..

while waiting, my darling Allan kept cracking jokes..

n at that point of time, he hold danny hand..

it took quite a while till danny realises that his hand get touched by Allan..

n suddenly both of them was like eeewww... haha..

danny went closer to allan..

Allan was like, stay away from me dude, i ain't a gay man..

lolx.. then danny spotted a lady tripping and he demonstrated how she trip..

it was hilarious!.. cant stop laughing..

Allan was like bugging me to allow him to go to the condom shop..

i said no.. and all this education about condoms came about..

i told him that he shouldnt said that bcoz danny is rather an innocent guy..

haha...

im glad to see Alinda again..

man she was like a barbie doll..

she said to me wow! you look matured now..

then i say yeah.. coz i wasnt controlled animore of the way i dress..

glad that my darling Allan wasnt the controlling type of guy..

i said again, of coz look that kind of guy im going out with..

must be pretty for him.. lolx..

really man.. alinda was pretty.. she lost weight...

Regu, alinda's bf was like really that she lost weight??

i said yup..

He said ouhk, i guess i have to feed her more..

hahaha...

poor alinda..

she was like a lil kid even though she is 20 years old.. she sat bside my sis to spoon feed her my sis's food.. haha.. very cute..

i ordered claypot seaffod noodle share with zie as we are quite full..

Allan ordered the same thing claypot beef rice.. but he didnt managed to finish it this time..

we can barely walk after eating as we are really full...

we went home after that... while the rest of them watch movie...

zie was nervous as she have to follow danny back home as his mother invited her to have dinner at his house.. haha.. poor her. like meeting the in-laws.. haha..

then went running home as my dad was really mad..

like a mad man i supposed.. he was angry with us for being home late..

it was not even late... we reached home about 840pm.. is that late???

for me it is not even late at nite..

hate my dad man... wish he was not in my life..

making my life miserable each day..

haiz...

but overall i had great time with u guys...

yeah! fun outing....

hehe...

yeah, today i didnt go school as i am sick..

kept going to the toilet.. lolx..

2008-08-13T21:00:00.000+08:00

Today was fun!!

First 4 periods in school is rather mundane as my teacher nvr come..
so we did nothing.. i sat with Dharshini n Hui choo..
We talk about loads of stuff.. from food etc....
then the next 4 periods was rather stressful..
the teacher kept pressurising us... the timing... blah blah blah...
English period was fun as i suddenly had this stupid imagination..
We were talking about Mr Chua of how he run chasing the pervert..
The weird thing is Vera is a black belt in taekwando.. but she did not apply to it..
haha.. Me n hazel kept talking bad stuff about our teachers.. damn bad arent we??
but its ouhk..

After school, went to amk...
Mira was like hey Allan wear all white today, so cute..
lolx.. i nvr seen him wore all white b4.. n today i did...
then we had lunch at amk banquet.. n i had a bad stomach cramp..
me n mira proceed to the library first,.. leaving my sis n Allan as i nid to use the toilet urgently..
met up with both of them in the library n i end up chasing Allan in the library..
haha... Mira was talking loudly in the library as she had her ears plug on..
she said that my darling hp got loads of nice songs..
haha.. now then she knw..
haha....

After that we went my grandma house...
i brought down naufal...
Allan was so excited...
haha... He love babies thats y...
He just love naufal.. he said that naufal was a pretty stubborn guy.. haha.. coz he cant sit still..
yeah.. the we went to fairprice as it was hot n wanted to buy drinks..
the cashier aunty ask him whether it was his son.. he said my son?? no he is not my son..
LOLX!!! but he is suited to bcome a father.. haha...
Mira was feeling disgusted with naufal saliver..
Allan purposely wipe naufal's saliver on his hand n chase mira..
Mira was screaming like hell..
it was hilarious..
Allan ask, then if u have children how??
mira said i'll let my husband handle it...
Allan just shook his head..
hahahaha....

im so tired..
had loads of fun today//
as i blog im feeling hungry...
so im outz..
take care everyone...

2008-08-10T13:52:00.000+08:00

Its been a while since i blog..
Hmm.. Well yeah.. alot of thing happened..
i dont know where to begin actually.

well, yesterday my cousin get married.
Finally.. interviewed the groom..
Haha.. He was pretty nervous + happy.
he said he waited for 8 years for this..
wow.. so patient enough..
the groom get disturbed by my aunties,
coz the way he hold my cousin like as though he is holding a patient.

Me n Mira went karoke at the event..
i was pretty nervous at first but hey, its was actually quite fun..
First time sang in front of alot of people..
yeah..
b4 the wedding me n mira went to a salon to do our hair nicely for the event..
haha..
yeah, its like as though we r getting married..
our uncles was like these two cousin always want to be pretty n be in the limelight.
haha.. we just say we must be pretty.. haha..
taking loads of pictures.. untill our uncles said, enuf taking pictures for both of u..
haha.. we are the photo family..
the cameraman said that you guys love to take pictures but no one take for me..
we just lolx...
but iwas an awkward moment taking pic bside my father.
my aunty purposely ask me to stand close him.
Fuck! Hate it man.. well they know how i hate my dad n they purposely do it..

yeah..
miss my darling allan..
he was on standby yesterday
n couldnt make it for my cousin's wedding..
poor him as he is at home alone..
but im sorry darling if im too busy yesterday..
I will always love you, no matter what...
n sorry about yesterday night, it was an emotional situation..
well yeah.. you should know it darling of how i feel if you ~~~~~

ouhk..
enough of this blabbering coz i gotta study..
tuesday is my practical exam..
hehe.. =)

2008-07-17T11:49:00.000+08:00

Hey..
Its been quite a while since i blog..
Been rather bz...

been sick these past few days..
the doc says im too stress out..
stress?? am i???
thats the thing i wonder..
i dont even realise that when my own fren can know why i was sick..
hmm.. im such a blur sotong..
yeah.. busy quarelling with my dad..
He is such a bloody jerk..
He confiscated my cellphone.. bastard!
anyhow scold other people vulgarities..
but nvm lor..
too bad that he have such a clever daughter..
i got a spare cellphone..
all thankz to my darling Allan..
hehe...

mira, i wish u all the best 4 ur camp..
cant wait till u return.. all the crapz that u are gonna blabber..
haha... wanna hear it soon...

sori my bff that i nvr go skul these few days..
rather sick la..
aiyoh..
but good la.. sleep at home only..
hehe..
yeah im lagging behind the rest man..
i gotta buck up..
yeah....

p.s. i dont have such a bloody father.. he thinks he is always right but he is always creating a grave mistake!

2008-07-02T18:46:00.000+08:00

Adik, im sorry if i neglect you..

maybe im busy, or ever since i have bf..

im so sorry..

you knw i feel so guilty..

everyday i keep thinking of u..

even though evry time u irritate me, it just add colours to my life..

n i really miss that..the only way to make up with u, is spend more time with u..

adk, u have changed alot.. i get really worried when i see u like this..

i love mira the way you are...

i know you are hurt by your surrounding n u are tired..

just bear with it.. it hurts me to see you like this...

Plz forgive me mira..
i should have been there fo you alwaes..

im such a bad kakak to you..
haiz.. whatever it is.. i want to make up to u..

im really2 sorry... and no matter what, im not angry with you.. i will nvr be angry with you.

coz I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!

2008-06-27T19:29:00.000+08:00

Mira, my beloved lil sister

Allan (my darling) & Armani

Hey..

Long time never update my blog..

been busy these few days..

Finally i have moved on after so long!! gosh..

it was really a tough journey though.. but i managed to pass trough it...

i have found such a wonderful guy.. his name is Allan..

Love just struck me just like that.. i knw it was fast..

But i asked other ppl for opinion. and it was a relieve that my beloved ppl agreed to my relationship with Allan.. Just love him like crazy even though he is a nerdy.. haha

I miss mira..

Long time never talk to her..we both are busy ever since school has reopened...

i just want us to be like the way we used to ... share about our probs, gossiping, etc...

i just want my mira badly.. miss her so much..

adk, i really love you.. if u have any probs or grieveness, share it with me..

i'll try my very best to help you..

today, it was quite a fun day, esp during P.E lessons..

play floorball with the guys.. only two girls played; me n hazel only..

but we played a nice game.. n hazel, my team won baby!!!

woohoo!! last time it was ur team, now its my sweet victory..

sweat like hell after the games.. hazel's face was like a lobster.. red!!

haha.. hazel very cute today.. wore P.E shirt with yellow shorts..

She is our bitchy Miss spongebob square pants...

yeah n i invited my frens to go out with me one day b4 my birthday to celebrate it wit me..

the location i dnt knw.. all i knw it will be fun like it used to be..

Mira, i will find one day for u to celebrate my birthday with u..

i knw its still one more month to go but, i just want it to go smoothly n everyone will not be left out..

including my beloved ziela n azian too..

love you guys loads..

k la gtg.. im tired.. =)

2008-06-10T22:07:00.000+08:00

Fucking pissed off these few days..
Everything seemed to cross my limitations...
i really had enuff...

wtf!! Everyone thinks that im a robot is it??
i might as well get killed.. much more worth it...
arghh.. when i reflect back, i have changed alot...

its all bcoz of you zaid!! all bcoz of you im like this!!!
i dreamt of you last night!! it was a nightmare.. it was really scary..
bcoz of u, i hate guys.. guys are so typical... its so torturing that u kept appearing in my dreams!!
get the hell out of my brain!! its all bcoz of u, im bcoming worse...

i dont know y i try to figure out guys nature these few days..
the more i figure out, the more complicated n doesnt make sense at all...
why do guys treat girls badly when the girls make no mistakes n is a good girl?
why do guys busted girls when the girls is good to them?
why do guys cheated on the girl when the girl is faithful?
why do guys nvr admit their mistake n turn around the fingers n blame us??
why do guys lie when girls are truthful??
why do guys never fulfil their promises when girls fulfiled it??

its getting ridiculous aint it??
coz guys are like that..
this is what i ask myself where did i go wrong when i broke up with zaid n noticing other ppl relationships n marriages...

my mum teased me just now in the morning.. she say u very funny, dont want to get married but want to have bf.. i say where got.. i have no bf now n im sgl n free beb. guys are such a hassle.. my mum say we'll see about that.. i replied, its a deal!..

haha..
i mish my Nur Amirah D/O Radewan..
long time nbr see her..
ish.. just cant wait to go jb with her this saturday..
then we can go shopping!!! alot of things i wanna buy..
common, its a gurls thang..
i love you mira.. mwuah!!

p.s. guys if you read this post im sorry if i hurt ur feelings or whichever ways it is, i was just expressing myself.. i hope you guys out there understand it.. no offence..

2008-06-01T14:43:00.000+08:00

This post is for my dear mira...

Thank you for staying in my life.
How could I have ushered you away?
Another person might have made me pay,
Needing the sweet vengeance of my grief.
Kindness is in everything you do.
You must love me very much to stay.
Often now, some moment of each day,
Unbidden, I am grateful I have you.

Yesterday was quite fun n tiring...
Felt lonely without Mira joining us..
Went to the airport to fetch sylvia..
damn i mish her..

But b4 that we went to have our lunch..
i was freaking hungry..
but my sis fyza ate alot.. to plate of food..

waited for sylvia to come...
xxxxxxxxx happened..
i dont wanna say.. some terrible happened..
feeling tired n after that xxxxxxxxxx thing happened,
its really spoils my mood...
damn it..
my sis bf was like why are you always angry??
i just say its none of ur concern..
Day by day, by behaviour is getting worse,,
i dont know whats wrong with me..

then had sparring with my sis bf..
my left hand is now blue black..
painful though.. but its ouhk.. at least i felt much more better..
they put the big bottle aside, then i kicked it till it break into pieces,,
they were like shock n ask me whether i was angry..
i replied no bt the actual fact that i was angry..
angry with guys esp...
they dont even know how to treat girls respectfully n treasure us girls..
think that us girls are some dolls which they can treat us the way they wanted..
holy shit!!!
thats y im afraid to be in another relationship..
F%@$k!!!!

thats for all now im tired ....

2008-05-20T22:18:00.000+08:00

Today was a crazy day!! Went to my grandma's house with my mum n sis.. then later mira n teha joined us.. after a while noni have to go to work n my sis meet bear.. we eat our food all in one big plate.. gosh.. we ate till we were full.. after that we went to sleep as all of us were feeling very tired.. i woke up coz my mum n teha went out n there's no one taking care of naufal my dear lil baby.. mira woke up... when my mum n teha got home, me n mira was like, i say to her that i wanna make her up.. she agreed.. gosh she was damn beautiful!! haha.. then she went out asking evryone in the house about her face.. they just entertain her.. seeing her like that just makes me smile with her nonsense.. we took loads of photos.. different range of angles.. then we have a small talk on certain personal issues.. then we go down with our uncle n teha.. teha was doing shuffling... haha.. just nid a lil more practice.. thats all for today.. im really tired.. must eat my medicines liao.. if not i die.. haha..

p.s. I miss you badly zaid.. cant get my mind off you!

2008-05-13T22:09:00.000+08:00

hey!! long time i never blog...

hmm.. i had fun today..

went out with my darling girlfriends..

went to vivo to have lunch at secret recipe..

Vera had a wonderful surprise for Jessica n Hui Ping..

All of them are hot!!

2 of secret recipe crew went to Jessica n Hui Ping holding a raspberry cheese cake n they were made to stand on the chair..

All of us sang a birthday song loudly...

gosh.. it was fun n sweet of the crew..

Hazel was like telling me one of the crew kept looking at me..

i didnt notice it as i was so into the wildness..

Vera n Hui Ping kept disturbing me till i blush..

Boohuhu..

When wanting to pay the bill, one of the lady crew approached Hazel asking her if she was a malay..

she replied that she was a mix..

The lady crew say that one of the guy crew asked for her no.

Man, i had the last laugh ..

cant stop laughing..

i said to everyone that the moral of the story is, dont make fun of the innocent people in the end you will get it..

haha..

sorry hazel.. but thinking of that makes me keep on laughing..

after that walk around vivo taking crazy pics..

n the shocking part was we saw Mr Ng Wah Kian with one lady..

we kept disturbing him..

haha..

then after that its time to part..

all of us had our own plans..

tired though..

but overall it was fun...

2008-05-02T20:07:00.000+08:00

i dont know what to say actually..

saw zaid fs, saw his girl n him..

i cried after looking that pic..

i really had no comments...

i only have a broken heart..

haiz..

n truthfully, i cant forget you..

i think of you 24 hours...

hmm..

i only can pray to god that my heart will be at peace..

N show me the correct path..

i wish to forget my past....

the pic on top is my beloved Naufal Shafiq..

entertaining him was so fun..

hahaha..

make him wear the scarf..

cute rite???

thats all for today..

i have no mood to talk today...

p.s. i still love you zaid...

2008-04-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

I was shocked at first that zaid home number called me..
I thought it was him..
my heart was thumping loudly..
it was a relieve that ayu, his sister, called me..
she asked me whether im feeling ouhk or not...
the fact is i was not.. but i keep it strong...
She was dissapointed with zaid of what he did to me..
after what ayu told me, its as though he dont love me animore..
its just break my heart to hear that..
the worse thing is his new girl ask him to break off with me..
how evil can she be??
Zaid, i still cant forget you no matter what..
i could not even concentrate in class as im used to having u around..
what wrong have i done to deserve this from u..
Haiz..
Ayu, thankz for the info that u give me..
i wont lose contact with u..
i really treasure u as my fren even though ur bro n me are not an item animore..

Today was awesome going out with alot of ppl esp with my sis, zie, fifi, mira n nono...
They just make me smile with their nonsense... i just love them.. they encouraged me alot!!
THANKZ GUYS!! I LOVE YOU GUYS ALOT!!!

im really dissapointed today...
im not in the mood..
but i hopefully pray that i can forget this pain..
P.s. Zaid, i still love you!

2008-04-27T15:26:00.000+08:00

Today i was officially broken up with Zaid...

it was sad though..

but what to do..

He no longer love me..

He already had a new girl..

maybe we werent meant for each other..

i will accept it soon that he is now not part of me.

8 months of realtionship is wasted just like that..

i still do love him... no matter what..

enough of this sadness...

hey i had fun during my religious exams...

me, azian, zie n haziq just cant stop talking..

our teachers just ignore us..

i was my first time talking to haziq even though after 4 months in the same class..

cool actually...

after the exams, we had a surprise for zie..

so chaotic..

then took photos with some of our classmates..

Fazli n Khai stained zie's face with the cream of birthday cake..

Zie took photos with haziq.. haha.. cute larr..

if i knew it will be this fun, i will take photos of what had happen..

zie drop her piece of cake..

khai n fazli was like going to that dropped cake, pick it up n eat as though they had not eaten for 10 days..

damn funny man..

haha.. till now.. im tired...

2008-04-25T20:44:00.000+08:00

Hey, im back to blogging!! i've been busy studying for mid year.. Gosh!! Had my English paper just now.. I wrote the wrong format of letter writing.. it was supposed to be formal letter but i wrote a report.. gosh.. am i going to fail if thats the case... haiz... these few days i was my mood was omg!! kept scolding my dear zaid.. Haiz.. poor him.. I LOVE YOU DARLING!! i know these few days barely u entertain me but i understand that you are busy working.. so that we got the money to go out.. but i really miss you so much...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DARLING ZIELA!!!

Wah.. grown up already uh.. hehe.. sorry no present leii.. no money.. hehe.,

but i will try to get ur present soon =)

Wow so fast time goes by..

we have been together since primary 5...

we are like siblings now.. i love you very2 much ziela..

can't bear to part with u...

Had fun with you yesterday even though its just a short one..

haha.. it was my turn that my shirt was stained..

haha... really had a wonderful time with u,..

cherish you veri much... mwuah...

2008-04-14T20:34:00.000+08:00

Today i never go to school as i had a toothache.. damn it was very painful.. i called my darling to wake him up as he wanna go to alter his pnts.. then i took one whole day to clean up my room.. i threw alot of books.. clean up my room while my darling sleep... around 5+ pm my darling went to collect his pants.. when he reach home, he did not entertain me..why?? because i heard a lady's voice... n that stupid sister Ayu is finally home after so long.. when brother meet his own sister, aiyoh.. the house like want to collapse.. that is call siblings love... like me n my sis.. we love each other but nvr confess it.. haha... LOVE YOU MY ELDER SIS FYZA!! even though u are one irritating bastard.. update soon ya.. im freaking tired.. mwuah!!

This was last Saturday's photo..

hadnt had time to upload..

went out with my sis n her bf, me n my bf, mira, Dan n teha..

i too dont wish too talk about it..

Luncheon meat n one more guy, i dont knw that guy's name but look like mat thailand, joined us later..

it was tiring n we had loads of fun...

2008-04-09T21:45:00.000+08:00

today was total bizarre..

zaid kept disturbing mira..

Zie was there too so fun..

mira was irrtating as she kept asking question..

haha..

and hazelina oh hui zhong was sleepy in class..

i kept irritate her.. hahaha..

this was the photos that were taken today... i had fun!!!!

gtg.. must do alot of stuff.. update more soon...

2008-04-08T21:18:00.001+08:00

Selfish???
i rather my definition of selfish is when friends forget who they are, when friends help them alot they tend to forget who help them..
that is SOLELY SELFISH!!!!
when their own friends make the slightest mistake, they blame on them..
THAT IS SELFISH TO THINK OF YOURSELF...
Friends should understand what the othr party is going through..
YOU ARE SELFISH!!! My sister was there for u whenever you need her.. BUT WHERE WERE YOU WHEN SHE IS IN DIFFICULT SITUATION???!!!
YOU ARE THEN SELFISH...
she does not buih for no reason...
our parents are damn strict n sometimes plans doesnt go according to plan..
when u guys invite her out, she tried her best to go out like the one for your preparations of the pit..
when u did projects together??
she buih huh??
when she invite you out, you say you cant, she understand..
she did not complain...
never once she bad mouthed about you guys n this is what she get??...
it aint fair does it??
there you guys bad mouthed about her??
you say she is lokek about work, then her place for interview doesnt have any vacancies, then what, want her to scold the boss??
if she is lokek, why in the world she ask u about finding jobs??
how selfish can u guys be???
Just mirror yourself first b4 calling other ppl selfish...
BTW I WRITE THIS ON MY OWN ACCORD.. NOT THAT SHE ASK ME TO WRITE.. coz i hate ppl doing this to my sister.. if you wanna confront just call me!!!!
I HATE UNGRATEFUL PPL...!!!!! p.s. just be grateful that you bf HAS FINALLY love you for who you are, no need to brag that you are faithful.

2008-04-07T22:33:00.000+08:00

I was late for school today..
got detention class..
it wasnt even 0725 and they closed the gate..
n i have to run all the way to the main gate..
gosh! so unfair...
i was feeling sleepy in class as i had not had enough sleep these few days..
i was sleepy and this bloody Hazelina kept irritate me with me nonsense..
after school waiting for the time to do detention class, went to cabada lounge to see my classmates jam..
it was so nice..
but overall it was a boring day for me.. go home talk to my darling zaid for a while..
he was rather busy..
He will be finishing his ns in 18 April..
woohu!! so happy...
now, i just finished doing my father's iras thingy..
then talk to mira peppy..
she was damn hyper..
calling me stupid larr..
as if she is not!! this is all for now as i have to finish my homework..
hehe... tata...

2008-04-02T21:15:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Today was quite a tiring day though... i slept in class till 1030.. woke up n be crazy with my clown; Dharshini.. she sat beside me n borrow my handphone.. to play game.. she went through my pictures.. she said i look diff in class than the way i look outside.. she say i look more prettier outside.. who would want to doll up when in school.. haha.. that crazy clown full of nonscence.. Then afternoon skip lesson, cant wait to go home n see my precious son.. then late afternoon mira n tehah went to my house.. so kecoh.. mira kep eating n eating non stop.. but never get fat.. haha.. My son kept crying.. made him sleep.. but he slept for a short while only.. aiyoh.. but nvm.. Then talk to Zaid on the phone while busy managing my son.. OMG!! Zaid's voice so cute!! but he got fedup coz i never entertain him.. haha.. but later at night i will talk to him... i kept provoking mira about Dan.. haha.. she is stupid to put the phone down quickly.. haha.. then i sent her home.. she took a cab home.. rich what.. hahaha.. hmm... all blog again soon.. gtg... tata..

2008-03-30T20:30:00.000+08:00

Today early in the morning went to madrasah (religious class). got exam today but i did not even study one single bit.. The exam was quite simple to do.. basically like common sense thing.. after that went back home sleep for a while.. then my beloved zaid wake me up by calling my hp.. He asked me to get changed at meet him at compasspoint at 3pm.. Then i received a call from mira peppy saying that she wanna follow meet me, zaid n fyza.. I thought she did not want to follow us at first.. well... nevermind.. bought for my mum kfc then went to banquet to eat while waiting for that fyza so late.. Mira kept msging Dan till zaid got fed up.. hahaha.. Then Fyza came, n she bought one chicken rice with extra serving.. gosh!! she said that she was freaking hungry.. zaid, me n mira was like going to puke watching her eat as we were damn full... haha.. but the good thing was she finished it all... then mira was complaining that she was bored n wanted to go my house.. so we went to my house.. Zaid transfer songs from my comp to his mp4... haha.. pretty excited getting a new song.. cute.. mira went hysterical.. because of Dan.. we advise her to talk to him on the phone b4 he went in.. but she refused.. she gave us all the excuses like she was shy etc... but in the end, she did talk to him.. after that she went lalalalalalalala bonkers! saying that he was sweet, talkative etc..... haiz.. she didnt even trust her cousin in the end regret... haha.. around 7++ mira went home.. n now im blogging.. hahaha.. oh ya, n she said zaid was an interesting guy.. hahaha.. so sweet of her.. i really had fun going out today.. so till then.. tata!!!